I consider my life worth nothing…
So after much prodding from my husband, here I am, making my first post in over a month. I know, I know. I am a down right boring blogger and I will try to work on that.
So you may be wondering about the title of this post. No, I am not loosing it. So please don’t worry about my mental health (although I am the mommy to a 3 year old and 15 month old and feel like I might loose my mind some days). The title actually comes from the first part of the bible verse found in Acts 20:24. This was the very first bible verse that I can remember highlighting in my bible and tucking into my “favorites”. If you are not familiar with this verse it reads:
However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me–the task of testifying to the gospel of God’s grace.
This verse just keeps coming back to me over and over again within the last few days. God has breathed new life into this verse for me after our guest speaker used it in his sermon this past weekend. I left church on Sunday really thinking hard about this verse and how this just sums up my life goal as a Christian.
This morning while I was playing with the kids, we were listening to K- Love on the laptop, and they were talking about having one word. I don’t know how this topic even came up, but they were asking listeners, if you had to choose one word for yourself, what would it be? This word could be something that you want to be, work on, do, become better at, make your mission etc. People were calling in and submitting them on FB or by e-mail and there were some really great ones. So I thought, ok, what would my one word be? What should it be? I like to constantly look for something that I can change or make better about myself. There is always room for growth. Anyhow, my word that I came to was Testify. I suppose that it could also be testimony. There are so many ways that I can make this my word for the year that I don’t even know where to begin. This is an area in my life which I could use some major growth but have always felt uncomfortable and challenged with. I absolutely hate stepping on toes and being in awkward situations. Needless to say, there have been many times that I have been presented with opportunities to share but have not done so because of fear, and I am ashamed of that. This is so much more than stepping on toes, awkward silence or even hurt feelings. My greatest hope would be that all of my friends and family would come to have God’s awesome grace poured out on them the way that I have and if I don’t take God up on His opportunities, then I have not done what He has called me to do. That’s only one way that I can testify however. I think of how I can testify to strangers in the way that I live, testify to my husband and children in the way that I love, testify to my friends and neighbors in the way that I care for them. You get the point.
So what would your word be? I would love to hear them.
A song that K-Love has been playing lately (it’s the only station I listen to if you haven’t picked up on that yet) puts testify into perfect words. It’s by a group called Pocket Full of Rocks and the song is Alive.
I hope to hear back from you with your “one word”.
Many, many blessings!