So after much prodding from my husband, here I am, making my first post in over a month. I know, I know. I am a down right boring blogger and I will try to work on that.

So you may be wondering about the title of this post. No, I am not loosing it. So please don’t worry about my mental health (although I am the mommy to a 3 year old and 15 month old and feel like I might loose my mind some days).  The title  actually comes from the first part of the bible verse found in  Acts 20:24. This was the very first bible verse that I can remember highlighting in my bible and tucking into my “favorites”. If you are not familiar with this verse it reads:

However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me–the task of testifying to the gospel of God’s grace.

This verse just keeps coming back to me over and over again within the last few days. God has breathed new life into this verse for me after our guest speaker used it in his sermon this past weekend. I left church on Sunday really thinking hard about this verse and how this just sums up my life goal as a Christian.

This morning while I was playing with the kids, we were listening to K- Love on the laptop, and they were talking about having one word. I don’t know how this topic even came up, but they were asking listeners, if you had to choose one word for yourself, what would it be? This word could be something that you want to be, work on, do, become better at, make your mission etc. People were calling in and submitting them on FB or by e-mail and there were some really great ones. So I thought, ok, what would my one word be? What should it be? I like to constantly look for something that I can change or make better about myself. There is always room for growth. Anyhow, my word that I came to was Testify. I suppose that it could also be testimony. There are so many ways that I can make this my word for the year that I don’t even know where to begin. This is an area in my life which I could use some major growth but have always felt uncomfortable and challenged with. I absolutely hate stepping on toes and being in awkward situations. Needless to say, there have been many times that I have been presented with opportunities to share but have not done so because of fear, and I am ashamed of that. This is so much more than stepping on toes, awkward silence or even hurt feelings. My greatest hope would be that all of my friends and family would come to have God’s awesome grace poured out on them the way that I have and if I don’t take God up on His opportunities, then I have not done what He has called me to do.  That’s only one way that I can testify however. I think of how I can testify to strangers in the way that I live, testify to my husband and children in the way that I love, testify to my friends and neighbors in the way that I care for them. You get the point.

So what would your word be? I would love to hear them.

A song that K-Love has been playing lately (it’s the only station I listen to if you haven’t picked up on that yet) puts testify into perfect words. It’s by a group called Pocket Full of Rocks and the song is Alive.

I hope to hear back from you with your “one word”.

Many, many blessings!

Related posts:

1. One Year
2. He had me in mind
3. Break the silence
4. I Will Rise
5. To Save A Life

4 Responses to “I consider my life worth nothing…”

1. Anonymous says:

   September 7, 2010 at 7:02 pm
2. Morganne Gabriel says:

   January 22, 2010 at 8:04 pm

   This is an awesome post Emmy! And my word would have to be 'listen'. I am so bad at really opening up my mind and my heart to really allow the Lord to speak to me. I'm always making excuses and trying to be the person that's one of those "cool Christians" that doesn't like to put people in their place when it comes to faith and relationships with the Lord. And by doing that, I often drown myself in the ways of this world, and the things that people say. I've often consciously ignored what God was trying to say to me so that I too, wouldn't make things awkward. So many times, I've felt convicted to witness to friends who deny the Lord right to my face, but I get so flustered and so afraid of saying the wrong thing, that I just keep my mouth shut! In those moments, I feel Satan wrapping himself around my heart, because when I look back on those moments of weakness, I know that the Lord would've spoken through me in order to witness. And I'm so ashamed of that. I'd like to share a song with you. "What Do I Know of Holy" by Addison Road. Part of the lyrics are:I made You promises a thousand timesI tried to hear from HeavenBut I talked the whole timeI think I made You too smallI never feared You at all NoIf You touched my face would I know You?Looked into my eyes could I behold You?So many times, the Lord has touched my face, and I didn't want to know Him. I think listening to the things He has to say to me will allow me to open myself up to Him again, that way I wont push Him away anymore. I'm very adamant about letting the Lord revive me, as only He can do. I'm so excited for the things to come! But none of it will happen if I don't listen to Him!Thanks for this post, Emmy It's definitely something to keep me on track! Love you!!
3. Holly Haas says:

   January 22, 2010 at 8:45 pm

   KLOVE is all that we listen too unless we pop in a Christian CD. I love it!!! I must've missed that convo that they had on that's you're talking about.
4. Sue Hammond says:

   January 22, 2010 at 9:48 pm

   Emily,You are such an inspiration to me. I can feel your testimony in your words. You'd make a great missionary !